I am coming clean with myself dear reader, I now know for sure that I live in a world of dreams. Dreams in which I see myself doing things as of right now I am unable to do, normal life, normal money no SSI to say having over $1500 in my account is too much. I want to not have to worry about the box they want to keep me in. Big dreams in which I can have a care person to help me go where ever I wish, not having to worry about laying in bed so much because I don’t want to hurt my dads back because he lifts me. Having a guy faithful, loving, funny, honest, a gamer to help me kick ass in games when my fingers don’t want to listen to me. Having non crappy insurance going from tricare to state health care sucks(ex hubby is a former Marine).

If I ever thought that I’d really end up where people seem to want me to be I’d wake up from my dream and I’d die inside because then I’d have to give up on myself and that dear reader would surely kill my soul. So I keep dreaming of better days, seeing what the new day brings my way. Please don’t wake me up.