I need this blog due to the fact that I have so many thoughts and feelings I am trying to process. I am typing on a blog where no one knows my name or face and yet I still feel like I am letting down you the reader (who I do not know at all) by letting all my thoughts and emotions spill onto the page as if this act will disappoint or instantly anger you because you don’t agree with what I write so I will have to explain myself to you. I don’t need you to like what I write I just hate feeling like my point whatever it isn’t explained well to the point where it can stand on its own without needing more info from me for you to be able to make up your own mind about it.

I have to to just let the feelings fall into this page so that they are stuck here and can leave my brain alone. I feel writing helps me make things real and helps me feel like I’ve given my feelings their say so they can STFU. I feel lighter just by writing this. I know that over think issues to death and this blog will give place to run to whenever the words get to be too much.