He(not my ex) wants to break me, to remake me, to change me, just for his fun, to see if he can, everything is a test to him words feelings, he gets to say pass or fail, worthy of him or worthless.

Just sex or something more to him, where I get no real say. I have played this game once before with the man who created it, I didn’t let him win and now I want, need, and deserve more then to be a game or an ego boost for you.

It’s my own fault because I thought that I could play only one side of the game and not put my heart on the table, well that’s what started to happen without me realizing it. I know if I keep playing this will cost me the love I crave from a man who is willing and able to give it to me, without the B.S.

So I am going to sit out the dance until the right partner shows up. I know in my heart and soul that he is out there searching for me.