I am nervous about writing this dear reader because I know he reads my blog but I have got to get my feelings out so here it goes:
I still miss him which is odd because we haven’t missed a day of talking to each other since we “met”. I know we broke up and he doesn’t like me that way plus the UK/US thing.
I just still miss him and can’t shake the feeling that he is the one I want. Yes, I am aware that it’s crazy and all the “It can’t be possible to truly feel that way” but I can’t make myself unfeel it.
I am NOT trying to make/force him to like me if he doesn’t. I am deeply truly thankful for our friendship. I hope me writing this post doesn’t push him away.
My friend Adri keeps saying I will find better or another but I don’t want another I want him. It isn’t just because he is cute or a gamer or that he is a wonderful person, there is this mystery thing about him that I like. We just click I can’t really explain it right but it’s how I feel.
Most of all I want him happy even if it’s never with me. Though the girl that gets him is VERY lucky. I just feel as if a tiny piece of my heart will always be with him always, I truly deeply hope it protects and watches over him always :).
Night dear reader until tomorrow..Or whenever I wake up :).
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I’ve been there 😦 it took moving across the country and not seeing him every day for me to finally realize “You know what? This isn’t so bad.” I was able to really focus on me and make myself into the person that I really wanted to be.
It hurts, but everything will turn out okay. Remember that the Universe has a plan for you, even if you can’t see or understand it yet!
BB,
-mya-
I know that the Gods have a plan for me. It just hurts because that feeling that he is the one I want won’t go away yet. Thank you for your kind words they mean a lot to me.