Note: Most people may not understand this post but I have to get my feelings out so that I can get out of this mood I am in right now.

My emotions have kind shut down right now because a lot of emotional crap happened to me today(see earlier post for more info, I really don’t want to re-hash all of of it here in this post), this happens to me whenever emotionally a lot heavy stuff happens to me in a short period of time.

My emotions kind of shut down for a bit to protect me and I know that the situation with my friend is done, we are friends again yay. My emotions just kind of haven’t caught up to the fact that I am ok yet.

The divorce stuff with my ex has me worried for a few reasons, some of which I really don’t want to get into on here. I don’t want him back and I am glad it’s almost over, he just has a way of fucking shit up for me at the last second. It will be nice when I can finally stop looking over my shoulder so to speak for him.

I know I will be ok in a few days dear reader, it’s just I feel numb right now, Also I feel like every time I try to/start to like a guy recently it’s been like this:

Guy: “I really like you, your awesome I want to be with you.”

Me: “Yay, let’s see where this goes.”

Guy for whatever reason later: “Nope I don’t really like you/I can’t be with you.”

It’s like here’s what you want…..OOOPS…Sorry, you can’t have it. It’s really annoying.