Dear reader I just realized that I am thankful that I only spent 4 and a half years married to my ex hubby as opposed to 10 or 15 years before I found out about his cheating.

I still have time at 27 to start over again and find a faithful loving man. This could have been way worse.

I want to close the door on him for good however to be honest I was raised that divorce isn’t good and this big part of me is thinking how can I want to be married again someday day if I ended my first one?

I know I don’t deserve the mind-games or cheating plus he has 2 kids with the new women.

I just pray that I have a man or a good friend to help me through the emotional process of the divorce.

Waiting for the “Band-aide” to come off of the paperwork to finally be filed and sent to me is driving me nuts.

I have been wanting for the divorce papers for about as long as we were married about 3 years, we were married for 4 and a half years before the trouble started.

I just want freedom to know that I am divorced and can move on with my life without the fear of him holding me hostage by the paperwork.