Note to reader: Please read the entries in the “Ending” tab of my blog if you’re curious about the backstory to this post, thanks: ).

My ex just messaged me saying:

“The truth is that I added you again because I had a vivid sex dream with you and I had to see your face again, I want to be a small part of your life again. Don’t worry I have no romantic ideas”.

All this because of a sex dream?

Part of me is honestly thinking: “Damn, I guess I still got it.”

The other part of me is thinking: “You’re only still here because I still need you for the divorce papers, once they are done so are you.”

I don’t want to be his friend anymore. I told him over and over again since this started all those years ago that once the divorce papers are filled I will not have anything more to do with him what so ever.

I honestly think that is part of the reason why he hasn’t filled the papers yet because he know once he does he looses me for good.

Every time he has left, never me…

Once I close a door on someone it tends to stay that way, I may wonder about a person however I don’t try to find them if I closed the door in the first place.

If the other person closed it I will look for them or forgive them if they are close to me.

Once I close a door the silence that follows is deafening..