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Dear reader my ex hubby just messaged me on his other FB account(his only way of talking to me without his baby momma finding out) telling me:

“I keep dreaming of you and the life we we planned, it’s almost like that life is haunting me.”

I told him:

“As much as it hurts me to say this I am going to be honest with you, I think that it’s the life you crave and not me. You never gave life with me a chance. We were just trying to survive the Marine Corps. We never got to start a life with just us. You never truly trusted me to love you and to help us make our dreams come true.”

I honestly think he misses his idea of me then who I truly am. He never got the know the real me, he was always worried about me leaving or cheating on him to see who I was or how much I loved him and would have went to he’ll and back for him.

I do miss him on a personal level he was my best friend first before all. He sucked as a hubby but he always seem to be a good friend when he had his head right.

I just want him happy even if it’s not with me.