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Dear reader the video chat did give me a bit of closure on some of my feelings because I got to see his face. I haven’t seen him in person for 2 years.

The split happened in April of 2010 then we got back together for a bit in December of 2010 and split for good April of 2011.

He just came to visit me at my dad’s on a Saturday and asked if I was ok with him cheating  on me again and I said no and then on Sunday night he called to say he was moving in with the girl who is now his baby momma.

We never really got a goodbye. Seeing his face today on the video chat made me see that I don’t really love him anymore on a husband level.

I do miss him as my friend we just always laugh together. He even let me see his daughter since his baby momma is out of town right now seeing her son from a previous marriage. Did I mention she freely admits to cheating on that guy with another guy.

Dear reader I feel bad because I don’t feel anything anymore. I just feel like that makes me a bad person.

I wanted to cry because I don’t think he sees how much I did love him. I kept asking him why he keeps talking to me, I know he wants something from me. He just kept saying how he wishes he could be back with me. I told him again that I can’t be second to his baby momma.

I do feel like he will come and see me for a last goodbye soon. I just hope he figures everything out before I find someone.