Dear reader I just had another weird dream where I was back at my old junior high school as an adult helping give a pep talk to the kids before they went to their graduation.

While I was there waiting for the kid’s graduation to start someone tells a guy from my past to say hi to me.

This guy was my first crush and the first guy I ever said I love you to at age 12(after which he told me to get away from him, then came to find me later to ask why I was crying) .

The guy tells me hi before he even turns around. When I do talk to him for some reason I lay my head on his shoulder(He is in a wheelchair as well however he has a different disability then I do) and tell him he’s looking good.

He smiles and catches me for calling him babe, I tell him that I was using it as a term of endearment and that was it. He then asks me why I have my head on his shoulder I tell him as I start to move my head away that I am having a hard time right now and I kinda need someone to lean on.

He says it’s ok and tells me it’s ok to put my head back down. I tell him not to worry that I am not 12 anymore I am not in love with him anymore.

He asks me about my divorce(side note he does know in real life about my divorce(He got my number from one of our many mutual friends once and asked if I was ok after it first happened, we haven’t talked since for a lot of reasons but the main one is the this guy played with my emotions for years . Also he isn’t ok with my faith at all, he has tried to convert me into Christianity since way before I became Pagan,  I will change my faith for no one)

I tell him that it still isn’t over yet. He says my ex hubby is an ass then he kisses me. I mean full out kiss almost with his tongue in my mouth. 

I wake up after the kiss.

Dear reader after I woke up I immediately started to wonder if the dream was a sign that I wanted to see this guy again and the answer I have come with is no.

I know that even if he did start to like me now a condition of which would no doubt be me changing my faith as I have stated before he has tried to convert me many many times in the past and he last I heard is in school to become a Christian film maker and I am happy being Pagan and no one is worth giving that up for.

Another cool part of the dream I want to mention is that when I was looking at my phone in the dream I saw a pic that I had some how taken of an area of grass and when I made a section of the pic bigger and zoomed in I saw a little gnome sitting on a tiny toadstool it was so cute.

To me it was a confirmation from the Gods that things will be ok and you never know where magic may be hidding.

I have a collection of gnomes on top of my entertainment center in my room : ).