Dear reader sometimes I wonder why I am lucky. Why I have been blessed with the life I have and others haven’t.

I have told myself for a long time that I can handle having CP and being in my chair. I know this may sound crazy however I have secretly always wished and hoped that me having CP ment that someone else didn’t have to.

I used to deny myself things because I thought it would somehow be fair to the other people who couldn’t have them(eat all your food for the starving children).

I finally realized that me having a happy life makes no difference to their suffering or not. I still feel guilty for being happy sometimes. Do you ever feel this way too dear reader?