Sorry I just can’t explain, the words that would fall from my lips if I opened my mouth aren’t the words you want to hear.

You want happy words, words to cheer you up. Sorry but I am fresh out of those words at this moment.

If I said them, the very second after they fall from my lips they’d become lies.

Do you want me to lie to you? Are you so desperate to hear cheerful words that you don’t care that they are lies?

I am deeply sorry to say that I don’t hold the keys to your happiness, I can’t even seem to find the keys to my own right now.

Sometimes even the person who is your shoulder to cry on needs their own shoulder to cry on.

Since my person isn’t here at the moment, I cry my tears alone, so that I would go off on you. I can’t make your perfect person appear. I can give advice however it isn’t what you want to hear so you think I am a bitch.

Since I was young I have been the strong, smiley one for everyone and I don’t mind, truly I don’t, it’s just even my smile sometimes slips.

You say you want someone to listen to your problems, what you really want is for someone to make them go away.

All I have control over is my own life, no more no less.

Right now all I want is a hug. To feel safe enough to let my guard down, to not have to be the strong one, The nice one, for just a minute. To just be me.

I’ll get back to you once I super glue myself back together.