Dear reader this may sound crazy but it’s true. In my life safety and someone having my back during crazy time has been a rare thing.

When David hugged me tonight for two seconds I felt safe. Like he would help me if things got crazy.

No, I don’t want to date him, he has a gf and is finally stable and sober. I just think that safe feeling may be one of the reasons I have been dreaming of him.

I want to feel safe again. No NOTHING is wrong at my dad’s. It’s just if something was to happen to my dad things would get crazy for me.

I want to have the feeling that if something goes wrong I have someone at my back. I mean it’s a fact that I can’t exactly run away.

Especially with next month being the month that my ex is supposedly going to send the divorce papers. Him and his baby momma aren’t the most mentally stable people I know.

I know that I will be ok in time dear reader even if I don’t see how right now.