Dear reader last night’s dream was one of the most vivid I have had in a while.

In the first part of the dream my ex hubby is trying to get the money to buy me a new and very expensive wedding ring.

I somehow find out what he is planning but just as I find out his baby momma finds out and he tells her the ring is for her(while telling me sorry behind her back) I then tell him I have had enough.
Here is where it gets really weird. I am for some unknown reason in a gas station parking lot by my house when I see that my dad is talking to a guy about getting clean(off drugs).

I swear dear reader even though I have never seen this guy before I knew his voice from somewhere.

My dad tells the girl that’s helping him get clean that this is her last favor to.do for my grandma(She passed away in 2005 but I know she is still looking for a guy for me).

Just as the guy is talking to the rehab place on the phone about getting clean he looks up at me and tells the person on the phone that he has a girlfriend who is clean.

Then here is the really weird part I am holding on to someone with my head down praying for him(I am pretty sure he is my boyfriend) and I look up and realize that the person I am holding on to is my mom. (I haven’t seen my mom since I was 13 I am 27 now).

When I look up my mom tells me not to be mad at him. I tell her I know and that I am not.  She asks me if I am mad at her I say no that I know her disappearing isn’t her fault.

I then for some reason ask her if she wants me to be and she says no but I sometimes think it would be better for you if you were.

Just as she says that we get pulled away from each other and I wake up.

I really do believe dear reader that this means something and that I am meant to help someone.

My ex likes the hole he is in too much to get out and I think would be happier with someone else.