Dear Shaun:

Hi big brother I know you’re on the other side as I am writing this however I just wanted you to know that you’re in my thoughts today and always.

I know we spent so much time apart because we have different dad’s however I always hoped I would see you again someday.

You were always like super man to me I wanted to follow you everywhere no matter how much it bugged you.

All the memories I have of you and I together always have at the end of the day you making me smile.

Now you’re somewhere I can’t follow yet and I feel guilty for still being here when you’re not here.

I know you wouldn’t want me to feel this way but I do. I am so sad that I just found out that you were 27 when you died which is how old I am now.

When you passed I was just trying to get over the fact that my marriage was ending. I thank the Gods that my ex was still around and kind enough to take me to your funeral(Damn wheelchair getting in the way again).

I didn’t say goodbye to you then and I still haven’t yet because I don’t think I could deal with a forever goodbye.

I know you are still watching over me and I am thankful. Just know as long as I am alive a part of you will be too.

– Love always you’re little sister

PS. I think the hardest part is that during all the years we spent apart I would pray that you were safe and now I know exactly where you are but I can’t just go and say hi.

I am thankful that I was able to find you again via MySpace before you passed and to tell I still love you.