Dear reader it’s 4:33AM for me right now on Christmas and I can’t sleep: (.

Not because I am excited for tomorrow(I am a bit) but because I feel sad and I am not entirely sure why.

I don’t want to miss a thing by Aerosmith is currently playing on Pandora and it has done that for the last few nights of me not being able to sleep. I am starting to wonder if it might be a sign for something.

I think that some of the sadness is because I feel myself starting to lose the child like joy I used to feel for Christmas a bit more every year and that makes me really sad.

I don’t want this to seem like I am feeling sorry for myself dear reader because I am not, I know how incredibly blessed I am and I am thankful: ).

On a good side note I am supposed to be going to see my brother Nick(My dad’s son from his ex wife, he had my brother and sister with her and years after they split up he met my mom and they had me) and my niece and nephew plus my niece’s baby(He is so cute: ) )

Afterwards my dad says we might go to the casino since it’s in the same area: ).

Either way it’s supposed to be a fun day:) Now if I could fall asleep :).

Merry Christmas dear reader and thank you so very much for keeping me company it means a lot to me:).