Dear reader I know that most of you will probably not get this post and or you’ll think I am crazy however I need to get my thoughts out so you’ll just have to be confused or skip this post.

Dear reader for the past 2-3 nights I have been having really weird dreams where I know that my dream self is doing things that I don’t get.

I have been waking up mad and confused some of the reasons I understand and some I don’t get.

The best way I can explain it is I feel like my dream self is dealing with some issues in that realm and I am just waiting to see what happens in the “real world”.

I keep getting the message:

“if you try to do something now because you feel like nothing is happening you’ll mess up what’s on the way” .

I know part of it is the fact that my dad probably will be mad when I finally get a new guy because he won’t want me to get hurt again or leave him.

I have been trying to explain to my dad that when I do find my guy I will make sure that the guy is ok with my dad and him hanging out with us some weekends if I move in with him.

I have told my dad I am lonely and he gets it but he knows the hell my ex hubby put me though so he will put the next guy though his paces until my dad sees he can trust him with me.

The other weird part of the dreams is that I have been yelling at people I don’t know for things that are really weird.

It’s been over the last 2-3 nights and It’s different people and situations every time but the basic format of the dreams are the same:

It starts with my dad and I yelling about my guy and goes into me yelling at someone else(different people and thing every time) for a weird random thing. I end up waking up mad and confused.