Dear reader I had another Raymond dream last night(He is a guy in my past that I have always cared for deeply).

In the dream I was at a random store with my dad and my dad had left me to go buy something as I am looking at the aisles waiting for my dad to get back Raymond taps me on the shoulder and asks me if I still remember him.

I am in shock for a second that it’s him so I don’t say much at first except to ask a few questions to make sure he is the right person.

He answers the questions and moves to give me a side hug, I guess thinking I wasn’t really excited about seeing him again.

As he turns to leave I snapped out of my shock and reach over to grab his arm, I then tell him my number and tell him if he needs me at all or gets into any trouble to call me.

He says he will and then he starts to tell me that he has been looking for me and he says the people he has been trying to use to find me but I haven’t been around them for years.

He then tells me he is married with two kids but he still wishes It was me. I tell him about my ex and that I haven’t forgotten him either.

Then it’s like two magnates coming together, fast forward and we are in a bed together his wife is about to catch us and I wake up.

Dear reader I am just wondering why I dreamt of him now(it felt really different than the other dreams of him) because before I fell asleep I was thinking of how I was finally ok with possibly being with an older guy.