Note to reader: The following post is for myself so that I can sort out the things that are happening in my life(Which is the main reason behind this blog) I am not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me.

Dear reader I apologize in advance if this post wanders a bit or doesn’t make much sense, I am just trying to get my feelings and thoughts out in a place where I will not be judged for them.

Dear reader my dad has to have hernia surgery soon(Yes I know he isn’t supposed to be lifting me but there isn’t anyone else around who can do it)

The last time he went to the VA(My dad is a Nam vet) they told him it was from bathroom issues. He hasn’t gotten it fixed yet because he has no one to help lift me into/out of the bathroom.

Well fast forward to earlier today My dad’s friend Lisa came over to visit and she said she would be willing to help me whether my dad gets it done.

My dad is getting dental implants put in soon(He has another appointment tomorrow) so he wants to wait until he is done with them to do it.

I am glad that he is finally able to take care of himself dear reader, I am just nervous because he is almost 70 and I want him to be ok.

I am just nervous because my ex told me a few weeks ago that he might be sending my divorce papers around October after he moves from TX(where his baby momma’s family is from) to PA(where he is from), FYI I live in CA.

Once I get the papers there is a lot of stuff I need to do that I will need someone to physically drive me places for so I am praying I find someone who can and is willing to help me before then.

I also pray that this doesn’t happen while my dad’s still recovering because it would cause a lot of stress on us both that we really don’t need.

I just need to remember to take everything one day at a time. I will of course keep you updated on everything dear reader, thanks for letting me vent:).