Note to reader: The backstory to this post can be found in the “My dad just went to the hospital” and “They sent him home because he needed an appointment” posts in the “Life” tab of my blog.

I am not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me I am just expressing my thoughts and emotions about my life so they will not stay bottled up inside me.

Dear reader my dad just called to make an appointment with the VA hospital(My dad is a drafted Nam Army vet) for his hernia surgery and they said he needs to go at 2:15PM tomorrow to schedule his surgery.

I am nevous for him because he is older(almost 70) and they have scared us about him going under anesthesia before when he hurt his shoulder.

My dad is my best friend and he also is currently pretty much the only person I can rely on right now(I have CP, Cerebral Palsy and can’t walk at all).

Right now two of my dad’s friends have said that they will help me while he is having surgery and afterwards when he is getting better(My dad still says he will lift me again someday afterwards he is very stubborn and doesn’t trust others to help me unless he has to)

I just pray that they’ll be reliable. Thankfully even though Adriana(My best friend who is currently staying with me right now..long story) can’t lift me she can and is willing to help me with a bed pan if needed(I know it’s TMI dear reader but everyone has to pee at some point).

I will keep you updated as I know more dear reader: ).

PS. Any prayers, good thoughts, and positive energy you could send to me and my dad would mean so much to me,  Thanks in advance Dear reader: ).