Note to reader: The backstory to this post can be found in the “The past really doesn’t die” post in the “Random Thoughts” tab of my blog. I am disabled because I have CP(cerebral palsy).

Dear reader I am very tempted by Andrew’s offer for friends with benefits because I haven’t gotten laid in so long(May 2011) and I really miss sex.

He knows about my chair and situation and he doesn’t care however he just wants sex and I get attached to people easily and I have never had sex with a guy I wasn’t in a relationship with.

The idea of just having random sex doesn’t turn me on, however no one can be a saint forever so I know it’s just a matter of when I have sex again.

I  have a high sex drive so going “cold turnkey” if the guy disappears sucks. Also I don’t want to have this mess up my chance at finding a boyfriend someday(having to explain it to him).

I told him all my fears and he says he understands, I also told him that I can’t promise I will have sex with him any time soon because of my dad’s issues(plus Adriana staying with me right now) however if I change my mind I will let him know.

I will keep you updated dear reader: )

PS. It also really weirds me out that he is really Christian but wants sex but no girlfriend.