Note to reader: The following post might not make sense to you because I am trying to sort out/vent my feelings as I write it.

Dear reader I want of this drama train. I was hoping that I would be able to talk to my friend Janet about some stuff because she understands how I feel about being nevous around new people sometimes.

Well she just called me to vent that her husband isn’t home again at 3:00AM because he’s out drinking(He just got home).

I realize that she isn’t really going to be able to talk to me about any of my stuff because she just vents about her drama then hangs up when her husband gets home because he doesn’t like me.

I am nevous because I might be going to the Pagan Pride Day in my area in October and I want to make friends however it always feels weird to me to go up to random people and saying:

“Hi, want to be my friend.” No, dear reader I don’t say it right off the bat and Yes, I like taking to people, however opening up to a new group of people is always hard for me at first because I never know how people will react to my chair.

I am disabled and in a chair because I have CP(cerebral palsy) and some people just don’t know how to deal with it.

However if I don’t put myself out there to meet new people I never will. So I have to suck it up and see how it goes.

Yesterday was the Pagan Pride Day event for where I used to live and strangely enough I didn’t feel like I had missed something I was supposed to be at even though this is the first time I have missed it in 6 years.

I think it may just be the fact that I feel like my ex hubby is finally done messing with my head as well(Check the ending tab of my blog for more information if you want it).

It feels like too many endings at once. Glad to know that you’re still here to keep me company dear reader: ).