Note to reader: The backstory to the post can be found in the “ending” tab of my blog. There is too much information to be rehashed every time. I last saw my ex in person in Jan of 2011 when he took me to my brother Shaun’s funeral.

Dear reader I might be getting divorce sooner than I thought. My Uncle Tim told me today that he would be willing to help me deal with the stuff I would have to deal with after the paperwork is in(social security and stuff like that).

Which is and has been the main reason why I haven’t got divorce sooner. My ex is in PA now(I am in CA) So I expect the papers to come from there anytime now since I am no longer on his “OK” list(He turns from love to hate on a dime).

I just want to be done with him for good dear reader, I have panic attacks thinking of him.

I don’t deserve to be cheated on or mentally abused(Never knowing from one day to the next if you’re going to be loved, hated or if he is going to threaten to kill you again).

My uncle said he is going to try to find out about the attorney his daughter used to get divorced to see what his advice is.

It all started to go to hell in April of 2010 and I have put up with enough of this craziness I deserve happiness.

He has two kids with another woman(Not the original women he cheated on me with) and is in another state.

I wash my hands of him I am done.

The funny thing about it is dear reader I was thinking about it earlier and I realized that I kept waiting for the Marine I fell in love with to somehow come back well he never will.