Note to reader: The following post is related to my personal faith(Pagan) if that bothers you please skip this post.

Dear reader I know that the majority of this will not make any sense to you, however it’s important to me so I am writing it.

Dear reader for the longest time(6 plus years) I have been getting feelings and “helpful hints” that I need to do a certain thing(s) spiritually(really long, complex, and private story) and I have resisted because I have felt and still do to some extent that I am not ready or qualified enough to do it.

Well certain recent events have shown me that I need to do it and see if I make it or not.

I put myself out there with my name on the line with someone who I respect deeply, I am nevous to see if it works out.

Either way it’s a first really big step and those are often the hardest..