Note to reader: The following post is just about me venting to get my feelings out so they don’t stay bottled up inside of me and explode. Sorry if it doesn’t make much sense to you.

Dear reader I know it’s only been a week and a few days since I met Alex however we have pretty much been talking every day since we met.

Last night he had a very bad day(long story and it isn’t mine to tell) and I tried my very best to confort him.

During the course of the convention I told him that I really hope that we can go somewhere at some point relationship wise.

He told me he has been thinking a lot and that he likes me a lot and he can see himself with me:

“When I give you my word about something like this I mean it, I will not just say it, I want to be sure that I can handle everything that comes with being with you.”

I told him that I understand and admire that about him, I just don’t want my chair(and the care/work that comes with it) to get in the way and he said that he doesn’t see it or me like that and he isn’t like most people and if he really thought it would be an issue he wouldn’t still be talking to me. He just wants to be sure about everything.

I think that’s really sweet and caring Adriana thinks it’s odd.

It’s just annoys me because she has had lots of different bf’s over the past few years and I have always tried my best to be happy and helpful with her about it and this is the first guy I have really liked in 3 plus years and I just feel judged I mean she got with her bf really fast.

Yes I probably shouldn’t feel something this fast and I did say I love you once last night when he was really sad, it’s just I really do feel that way for him even if he never gets with me I just want him happy dear reader and I am trying to show him that I don’t want to hurt him or take anything from him.

Every other time I would say it a lot(with other people in the past) and I could feel myself making myself “fall” because they were cute or wanted me this just feels normal.

I am NOT trying to get with him tomorrow or anything like that I just want him to know he can count on me.