Note to reader: I know this post probably wouldn’t make sense to you, however I have to get this one of my head before I go nuts.

Dear reader I am sick and tired of watching people fall through the cracks in life.

My mom, friends, and sometimes even myself.

I tried calling Alex yesterday after he told me that I was his girlfriend and how happy he was about being able to see me soon.

I couldn’t get ahold of him for most of the day then around 4:30 PM a girl answers his phone asking me who I am looking for(FYI no one but him has ever answered his phone the entire time I have known him).

I say Alex and she tells me he isn’t there and that “He gave her his phone because he didn’t want it anymore and he is out of his head”. She then says “I got to go bye”.

WTF

Why would he just give someone his phone which is his only way of getting ahold of anyone since he is in CA and his family is in Iowa.

Forget about me, it just doesn’t seem like something a person in their right mind would do.

And there are definitely easier ways of getting rid of me if that’s your intention.
I posted on his FB wall what happened and that I am worried and I just want to know he is ok but so far no real news.

None of this adds up and I am so nervous for him dear reader: (.

PS. I would want someone to find me or try to if I disappeared. Yesterday was the first full day we haven’t talk to each other since we met about 2 weeks ago.

He promised me many times he wouldn’t disappear without saying goodbye because he knows how much I have been hurt by that in the past.,

Why would you tell someone that they are your girlfriend(especially knowing that the person is going through a really rough and scary time in their life right now) then give your phone away to some person the very next day it doesn’t make sense.

He hasn’t yelled at me for what I posted on his page if this was just a fucked up way to get rid of me.