I know the following post might not make sense to you dear reader because it’s just me dealing with some of my thoughts and emotions so I apologize in advance for any confusion.

Dear reader I know this might seem crazy or odd to you however I keep having dreams and feelings of someone from my past popping back into my life(and some already have).

So I have decided to block some people on FB preemptively just because I really don’t want to deal with them if they did decide to come back.

Sometimes you have to put the past to bed.

I know that I can’t wait forever for Alex to come back, that doesn’t mean that I have to take someone from my past back again.

I want someone new, I need a chance at a new story:).

I just Alex would’ve given me a goodbye first. I don’t even know what I did *wrong* we weren’t fighting or anything before he left.

He just said he was working(via text) and he would talk to me soon then he stopped answering my calls or text, I haven’t heard anything from him for about 2 weeks now(which has never been like him since we first met).

During the last phone conversation we had he talked about us going to Iowa(where he is from) at some point for him to show me around.

A goodbye and to know he is ok is what I want but he won’t answer my calls or texts.