Note to reader: check the trials in love tab for the backstory to this post.

Dear reader I know I deleted Alex’s number off my phone and stuff a few days ago and it’s been almost 2 weeks since I have heard anything from him at all but I still really miss him.

I am writing this currently using the 4G on my cellphone while I am laying in bed in the free hotel room my dad got tonight from the casino and I just keep thinking of how much fun Alex and I had together the last time we were here.

I won $200 on the slot machine tonight where I first held his hand(I gave $100 of it to my dad).

I also believe it or not made $100 on the craps table using the other $100(I pressed up the world bet about 6 times because I kept winning it, that hardly ever happens).

I gave my dad that $100 too and I still have $100 that I put on the table in the first place.

It would have been so fun for me to have shared that moment(and Yes, dear reader I would have split/given him some of the money).

I wonder if he’s even realized that I am gone yet: (.