Note to reader: The following post is just me venting about my ex hubby.

I still dream of him like he is here, I had a dream of him last night(I didn’t write it down here sooner because I don’t want to give him anymore power over me) and I find myself still thinking about it as I am about to go to sleep tonight.

The dream itself was more of the same, him trying to come back, me telling him to leave and the sex.

I know it’s just mostly about my fear of the divorce, him trying to trap me again before it’s done.

I know in my heart I will find freedom and a better more loyal person soon I know these things don’t have to go together but the back of my mind still worries.

It’s just how amazingly vivid the dreams are and as crazy as it sounds usually a few weeks after I dream of him he pops up on his other FB page to check on me.

It’s just really hard to close the door when I am still legally married to him(I will do the papers myself as soon as my dad gets over some personal issues. Darn chair having to make things difficult).

I know that I dodged a bullet with Alex and his drug use issues, I just wish it was as easy to be done with my ex hubby as it was to be done with Alex(block, delete number, and texts)