Note to reader: This post is just about me venting about the situation.

I am NOT an ATM machine dear reader, I really hate that Adriana keeps treating me like one.

I do have money in my bank account mostly from stuff I have saved from years ago when I was with my ex and money I won at the casino over the times I have went.

The money I have in it is all I have to get stuff I want or to help out my dad when he needs it, I don’t have money coming from the government right now because of my divorce issues,

I know that I am lucky that my dad helps with food and stuff but at the same time that money is a safety net and a sense of yay I don’t have to ask my dad for everything.

It’s really hard to explain. I don’t have a lot of freedom as a person with a disability and that gives me a sense of some.

I know that if I take money out and don’t put it back in it will run out, I am always careful to plan things I want or need around casino trips so I know I can hopefully put money to cover what I want to take out(I buy after I know I put the money in).

I am so sorry if this doesn’t mean sense to you dear reader, I said all this to say that Adriana just asked me for another $40 after I have already given her $40 a few days ago when she stayed at my house with me for a few days.

She knows my situation, I just hate that people make me feel guilty for what I have.

I told her I would send her another $10 the amount she had asked for in the first text.

Just because it may not look like it I do work hard at the tables to try to win. Last time I was there I gave my dad $100 out of the $200 I won and Yes I would love to have a normal job, however not being able to physically take myself to the bathroom room kind of gets it the way.

It also bugs me that today was when she had promised to give me back the original $40.

I know it’s mean to say but it’s not my fault she having issues right now but it always seems to be something, she hardly ever just calls to say hi.