Note to reader: The following post might ramble a bit, however I have to write it here to get it out of my head.

Dear reader I keep hearing about guys(and have met a few in my personal life) who are sad because “nice” girls won’t date them or give them a chance.

I keep thinking that I would like to cheer them up and tell them to have faith, however for me personally the guys I have ran into like this have been for the most part very down on themselves and don’t believe me when I tried to be nice or they got so clingy that it scared me:

“Your the only reason I have to live for”.

And it just put too much pressure on me.

I have learned the hard way dear reader that you can’t let anyone be the only thing you find happiness in that is WAY TOO MUCH presure to put onto another.

I also really disagree with the “I am entitled to a girlfriend .” Statement I have been hearing about on the news from guy who hurt girls.

I have never in my life felt like I was entitled to have a boyfriend. That to me makes it sound like property.

I guess what I am trying to say dear reader is that I want to help people I just don’t think I could date or be with a guy who had such a bad self-esteem.

I have tried and I have just ended up getting hurt to much, I still feel guilty for it because I know how it feels to be ignored because of my chair and I want to give the love and joy that I want to receive from someone else.

I mean I miss cuddles and hugs(and to be super honest here sex It’s been 3/half years for me since I have had any).