Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me venting about my own personal thoughts and feelings. As always I speak only for myself.

Dear reader I hate the fact that being genuinely happy for someone’s success is considered fake now.

I made the decision in 2008 to get my tubes tied(I got Dr consent due to my CP, Cerebral Palsy. I also used my ex husband’s military insurance benefits because we were still together at the time) however that doesn’t mean that I am not genuinely happy for my family and friends who have kids.

Or whenever I see someone succeed at something whether I see a story on FB or it’s someone I know personally.

I am NOT “secretly bitter or envious” of them.

I know that their own personal success takes nothing away from me or my own personal ability to succeed in some form in my life.

I also wish that kindness wasn’t considered fake or even flirting by some.

I do get genuine joy from the happiness of others.

I will be completely honest with you dear reader sometimes I see people doing things that I personally physically can’t do (Stupid chair) and I do get sad and wish that I was able to do it as well, however I don’t believe that I have ever wished them negativity because of my sadness.

I really just wish I didn’t have to justify my feelings and behavior(a guy recently asked me if I was high because and I quote “No one can be as naturally happy as you are right now”.) On something as basic and I believe as fundamental as being happy and kind.