Note to reader: I am just venting out my feelings and emotions so that they don’t stay bottled up inside me. I am not trying to make any feel sorry for me.

Dear reader I have been looking forward to seeing the new Alice in Wonderland movie “Alice in London” as a birthday present from my dad he was going to take me to see it at the movies only to find out that the release date is May, 27th, 2016:'(.

I have been in a lot of physical pain lately due to my CP(Cerebral Palsy) and I have been using this as a bright spot to look forward to and now I feel more sad about it then I think I should.

I know that I have other things to look forward to however this was supposed to be my birthday fun (I will be 29 on may 31st), I know that seeing my family the day before my birthday for my great – nephew Teegan’s 2nd birthday party will be fun however this was supposed to be my thing.

I guess it wouldn’t bother me so much if my body and emotions weren’t so out of wack right now(sometimes being a girl sucks if you get what I mean dear reader).

It also really sucks that so many people want my attention and want me to feel/me happy right now when I just don’t.

It feels like they almost think that I should be used to pain and my body feeling the crap so it shouldn’t both me anymore but it does.

I am Truly blessed and thankful that I have you dear reader to “listen” to me vent without judgement or just telling me to “get over it”. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart 😙