Note to reader: The following post is ONLY me rambling about something that I am currently thinking about. I am NOT trying to judge anyone else or give advice.

Dear reader I have realized that part of the reason why I am happy(relatively speaking) is because I don’t seek negative attention.

I don’t keep talking to my exs just because I am lonely, whenever I get that way I write about it here in this blog.

Just the fact that I know that it’s out of my brain is a comfort to me.

I have always wanted(since I was old enough to know the difference) for the attention I got to be for a good cause or because whatever I was talking about I could back up with facts or deeply held beliefs or convictions if it was a feeling that I couldn’t put into words.

I know from personal experience that half of how you are treated is whatever you are willing to put up with in behavior or how you let a person treat you.

The hardest part is walking away from them if you don’t like how you are treated, sometimes it means being alone for awhile until new people show up.

Another thing I have noticed is that I vent to you dear reader about a particular situation and if I can’t fix it right then I will move onto a different problem or a different piece of the same problem until I can see a new way to get the issue delt with.

I don’t keep harping on it if I can’t do anything about it. I had a lady who was trying to help me once tell me: “Don’t get yourself caught up in telling your story over and over again because you might get stuck”.

Focus on whatever you can actually do. For a long time my teeth have been an issue for me and honestly I didn’t know how I was going to fix it.

Thankfully now I have a dentist who is willing and able to work with me and my issues and my dad is a position to help me pay for it.

Hopefully after this taken care of I will see a way to help deal with other important issues in my life.

Ramble over.