Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me venting about/Talking about my own personal feelings/thoughts about this situation. I am NOT trying to judge anyone.

Dear reader I just found out the other night that my friend Ashley(she is one of my brother Dustin ‘ s ex girlfriends) has had 4 miscarriages over the last 2 years.

I don’t really know what to tell her except that I feel really sad for her, she really wants to be a mom more than anything.

Also my nephew in law Ricky just found out a few days ago that the person who had volunteered to be a kidney donor for him backed out after doing the paperwork without giving him a reason why which means that he is back at square one again.

Sorry just doesn’t cut it for things like these situations dear reader and I really don’t know what to say that might make a difference.

As for Ricky because of my CP(Cerebral Palsy) I don’t know if I am able to donate, to be perfectly honest with you dear reader I know that my dad would have a fit because he would be really worried about my health.

As for Ashley what honestly keeps running through my head is what if it’s a sign that she isn’t ment to have a baby right now?

I know that thought probably means that I am a horrible person however it is an honest thought.

I know that all I can do about both of these situations realistically is to keep praying for them both however I doesn’t feel like enough.

PS. I can’t see Ashley in person because she moved to North Dakota and I still live in Southern California.

Also I promise to keep you updated on everything as soon as I know anything more dear reader.