Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me getting out my own personal thoughts, sorry in advance if it’s a little rambling.

Dear reader I was just reading about someone talking about getting older and still not feeling like an adult yet.

As I was thinking about myself I realized that I do kinda feel like an adult now at 29.

I think that part of this might be because of the fact that I have kind of lost a bit of my sense of wonder.

I still have stuffed animals to hug whenever my CP(Cerebral Palsy) acts up(Squeezing them when I get tense helps) however I have noticed that I don’t have the same amount of wonder when I see Mickey Mouse or I watch a favorite old cartoon.

When did it become “Normal” to loose wonder or innocence? thankfully I still am holding on tight to my imagination(which I personally believe is the reason why I’ve have seen big changes in my personal life because I imagined/believed that they could actually happen, Yes dear reader I also had to put in work to help make them happen however I don’t personally think that they would’ve happened if I hadn’t imagined/believed that they were a possibility first).

I think part of the reason why I lost my sense of wonder is because I have had so many people tell me:

“You must be high, slow, or fake because no one is ever naturally that happy.”

I am not saying that I am happy all of the time dear reader because I am not however I am normally happy.  My friends say that I am like pixie sticks(an old kid’s candy) on Crack because I am hyper and happy most of the time around them.

I don’t want to be sad just to please others I think I will just be myself and deal with the haters accordingly.

Thanks for staying with me on this journey dear reader and for accepting me as I am ♡.