Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me venting about my own personal thoughts/feelings about this situation. I am not trying to judge anyone.

Dear reader my best friend Adriana(The mother of my God-daughter) told me once in junior high that I needed to learn how to comfort myself and have things that I enjoyed that I could do whenever she was busy.

She didn’t talk to me for awhile afterwards and it really hurt my feelings at the time however looking back on it now I know that she did me a favor even though she did it in a mean way.

I remembered things that made me happy I kinda found myself again.

Now my other best friend Janet is kind of using me as a security blanket for pretty much everything.

I tell her that I can guide her and give her advice on how to write applications and stuff however I can’t do the work for her(mostly because of the fact that I am so far away from her).

Over the past few days I haven’t been feeling well because my tooth was still sore from the root canal and at a one point when she asked in an FB message if she could call me I told her no because I was worried about me dad(I thought he was having a health issue but I thankfully found out later that he was ok).

She told me not to stress out about it, then I told her that he was ok, however since then she hasn’t called me or replyed to my FB messages even though it says she’s seen them.

I think she’s mad at me because I am not telling her it will be ok, she’s freaking out about her bf telling her that she needs to find a job in case something happens to him.

He has said that a few times over the past few months and I have been honest with her and said that I think that she needs to be able to help herself so she can have the stuff she wants.

She says she agrees with me however every time I come up with ideas for her she says no and after a few minutes she hangs up the phone.

I don’t know what else to say to her dear reader.

Hopefully she gets some good news soon. I will keep you updated as soon as I know anything more.