Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me venting about my own personal thoughts/feelings about my own personal life. I am NOT trying to judge anyone else or speak for anyone other than myself.

Dear reader about 5 or so days ago I started talking to a guy on FB who saw my posts about Kylie Jenner and her pictures in a wheelchair.

He saw them on his FB feed and added me I added him after we talked via messaging for awhile.

He seemed really cool and sweet at first and over the past 2 or 3 days he has been kinda harsh with me because I am normally very happy(if you guys have been on my blog for a while you know that I have my down days as well).

I don’t really know how to say this next part without seeming mean however I have to be honest with you dear reader so here it goes:

He mentioned that he gets down sometimes which I was ok with at first however he has started to take it out on me and I really don’t want to be mean to him however I personally believe that if I stay around sad/grumpy people my mood will eventually go down as well.

The other thing that really bothers me personally about this situation is that he wants me to date him eventually(yes dear reader he knows about my chair and everything already) he even said he would move to California from Colorado if it works out.

I just don’t personally feel like I should have to change my personality for someone. I’ve dated people with depression issues before and I have always ended up being dumped because they couldn’t deal with me being happy or needing affection(I am a very affectionate person I love kisses, hugs, and cuddles)

I also think that the fact that we don’t have much in common for us to bond over or talk about is starting to be a problem.

When I have asked him recently he says we will find more stuff later and just doesn’t want to talk.

My thing is dear reader if you don’t want to talk to me I will eventually find other things to do and I will stop making time for you.

He also keeps saying that he wants to “date” me via phone, text, and FB messages until I find someone else or he gets out here whichever is first.

However I have personally come to realize over the time that I have been talking to him that I really need someone who I can physically see and touch especially since I have been alone for so long.

I know that it’s going to be hard to tell him that I don’t want to talk to him anymore but I think I have to do it before his moods bring me down anymore.

Thanks again dear reader for letting me venting about this situation. Having you here really does mean everything to me ♡