Note to reader: The backstory to this post is Here if you are curious about it. As always I am ONLY talking about my own personal thoughts/feelings about this situation, nothing more nothing less.

Dear reader I just finished talking to the guy via text(He didn’t want to talk on the phone I asked) and I told him that we are better off just staying friends because I don’t like having to feel bad for being myself(I wish I could understand why people seem to think I am “too happy” lately).

It was weird because when we first started talking he was the one always texting me first and asking me how I was and saying he wanted to date me.

Now he pretty much wanted space but he didn’t like when I was busy with my own stuff. If you push me away I will find other stuff to do and I will stop making time for you.

Plus I was honestly annoyed that he kept saying that I was “too happy” WTF?

I seriously want someone who doesn’t want to be sad all of the time. Also let’s be honest here dear reader after almost 4 years of being alone I need someone who I can physically see and touch.

Plus I honestly didn’t like the “just date me until you find someone better for you over there” you guys know that I tend to fall fast and get attached quickly and I don’t want to waste time with someone who I probably won’t ever see.

I am glad it’s over and strangely enough for the first time in a while I don’t feel sad about being single for Christmas/new years.

I think it’s in large part because of you dear reader and knowing that you are behind me wheneverI am feeling down or lonely. You are amazing ♡.