Note to reader: My brother Shaun and I have the same mom but different fathers. He died December 28th of 2010. My brother Nick and my Sister Cindy have the same dad but different mom(they both have the same mom and dad, their mom divorced our dad 10 plus years or so before I was born).

Hey bro what’s up? I know that you are still with me in spirit even if I don’t feel like it everyday.

I tried to use the “spirit boxes/ghost boxes” apps on my phone on your birthday this year to try to say hi to you or my Nana or Poppa, besides getting scared a few times they didn’t work, it’s definitely NOT something that I will ever try again even though I am glad that I did it because I couldn’t leave even a 1% chance to talk to you on the table.

I still honestly think that I should have went instead of you. You are a thousand times nicer and better than I will ever be.

I know that if it was reversed you would want to switch places with me as well because it’s just who you are.

I am sorry for not talking to your ex gf it’s just she always makes me feel badly for not being able to physically get to your grave site.

I would feel really bad about “running over” people’s graves in my wheelchair to get to yours.

I miss you every day. I spent years trying to find you again and now that I know exactly where you are I can’t go say hi or just tell you I love you or have you tease me for being younger than you.

I hope that wherever you are you are happy and safe and that you don’t feel sad or lonely anymore.

Love you now, forever, and always your little sister.