Dear reader I have noticed that for some odd reason it seems like I loose a follower or two every time I post a post about how much I love you guys and how much having this blog in my life has and continues to help me on a daily basis even if it’s just writing my nightly “Things I am thankful for today” posts.

I want to write this post saying thank you even if it means that I loose a follower or two because today especially as I am currently writing this right now I want to actually cry because I realize now more than ever before that no matter what happens and even if losse every follower or never get a view again this blog will always be here for me to vent to and to talk about my life and my feelings no matter if no one wants to listen or understands why I am feeling however I happen to be feeling at the time that I write the post.

Writing things down has always helped me to get things out of my system so that I don’t explode or keep them inside where they can bubble up into something bigger.

I have struggled with feeling like my life doesn’t matter ever since I was young because of the comments that random people would say to me to my face or even at times my family or friends because of my CP(Cerebral Palsy).

A lot of people seem to think that just because a person has a disability that they can’t or for whatever reason don’t deserve to live a “normal” life.

I have been fighting my entire life to fight my way out of people’s expectations of me or for me and live my life as I see fit.

Yes, dear reader that means that I have made many mistakes and I am even getting divorced(as soon as I have a way to physically get to the court house to file since my ex husband is still fighting me over the paperwork) however divorce happens all the time to “normal” men and women all of the time it’s not something that is because I can’t walk.

I know that I will find the right man for me someday and he will love me flaws and all just as I will do the same for him.

I was thinking about what I am thankful for today for my nightly “Things I am thankful for today” post and the main thing that came to my mind today was once again that I am beyond thankful for you and this blog dear reader.

You and all of your likes, comments, views, and follows mean more to me than words can ever fully explain so that’s what will be on my “Things I am thankful for today” post tonight.

Having this blog has given me a way to connect to people around the world from my bed and you guys have shown me that my life does matter in some small way and that people are kind and caring.

You guys feel like family to me and this blog has pieces of my heart and soul in it. The good, The bad, and The ugly about me is here and it always will be.

I really want to be able to do a YouTube channel for this blog(beyond the videos that I post here of me playing video games and some videos talking to you dear reader) or a Facebook page for it however the more that I search my heart about it the more that I realize that I am way more comfortable and at ease just writing to you and I feel like a Facebook page for the blog besides increasing the odds of my family or friends finding this blog(my best friends and my dad already know about the blog however my family and most of my friends I feel just wouldn’t understand it and the purpose of it) it makes it feel “cheaper” to me personally or that I am trying to use this blog to become famous which isn’t my intention at all, however I won’t lie to you and say that I would turn down an opportunity if it feels right to me because I won’t.

I honestly feel badly that I can’t do more for you dear reader however I don’t like taking pictures of myself so Instagram is out and I really can’t do 140 characters or less which you can clearly see from my blog so twitter is out as well.

I do have snap chat which is DragonGirl0486 I don’t add stuff to my story yet because I am not comfortable with that yet however I will always answer any nice snaps. I also read and respond to nice comments as well. My comment form for this blog is under my “About Me” page if you want to say hi to me that way.

As soon as I am physically in a situation or have someone to help me with the mailing/shipping process I want to try to do give aways of Books(once I finish reading them) for you guys if you are interested in it.

Thanks again dear reader for staying on this journey with me and I can’t wait to see where we go next :).