Dear reader I am writing this post because of some stuff going on with Adriana and “Star”.

They are both currently mad at me with different degrees of anger because I haven’t been around or talking to them much lately mostly because my CP(Cerebral Palsy) has been really making my body hurt lately.

I miss the days when I was young and hugging them at lunch or recess or just listing to them about their respective crushes or helping them study for a test really would solve their problems.

Now in adulthood problems are way harder and more complex than ever before.

I also have problems of my own and the honest bold blunt truth of the matter is that I don’t have much comfort in myself to give them right now.

I was told by someone years ago that “if you keep repeatedly saying your past over and over again and saying that you are stuck in your problems then you’ll never get of them.”

She said that the best way to get unstuck was to “stop telling your story so much and to only talk about or really think about your problems when you have actual steps that you are actually going to/able to take to fix them.”

Dear reader I have followed this advice and seen a big difference in my life between when I first got the advice years ago and now and yes it does take time to work.

Because of this advice which I have shared with both of them multiple times I don’t really talk about my problems too much. I just vent about them here and for the most part it’s done until I find ways to fix them.

I don’t over stress with a bunch of different tarot readings or something else like that.

I don’t know how to fix their problems or to make things better or easier for them. I do give them both Tarot readings and I have given Adriana her own set of cards.

Today I finally felt good enough to text Adriana and I asked her if she was ok and all she said was “wow you’ve been asleep all this time?”.

I told her why and send her messages on FB and no answer even though I gave her my dad’s cell number and told her that if she ever can’t reach me and she really needs me to call my dad’s phone and he would get me which she never did also their are no voice mails or text messages(which I have told her multiple different times to leave me if she needs me because I am scatter-brained and I forget to look for missed calls).

I wish that it was still as simple as a hug to fix their problems dear reader.