Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me venting/talking personal situation right now. I am NOT trying to make anyone feel sorry for me and as always I speak only for myself and my own personal experience with my disability(Cerebral Palsy) no two people hands disability the same way even if it’s the same one.

Dear reader I am writing this post because 1. I feel like I owe you guys an explanation for why I haven’t been posting as much lately and 2. You guys always cheer me up and offer good thoughts and prayers whenever I need them and I can really use them right now.

For the past few days(including right now) my pain level from my CP(Cerebral Palsy) has been really bad to the point where I just want to sleep and the pain medication isn’t really helping at all.

I go through cycle and right now I seem to be in a bad one. I don’t know how long they last or what part of the cycle is next. It’s usually really tight and I have energy but my body fights me more when I try to do things or I get really tired and my body feels like a wet noodle.

For some reason it feels like I have been and still currently in a cycle that’s a weird mix of the two.

I am trying so hard to fight through it and stay happy but right now I am trying not to cry right now as I am writing this post because it hurts so badly right now.

I KNOW that I will be ok in time and that this particular streak of pain will ease soon however it doesn’t change the fact that it hurts right now.

Dear reader please send me an good thoughts, prayers, and positive energy that you can spare it really does mean the world to me ☺.

PS. Seeing likes on my posts really does cheer me up too 🙂