Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me talking about myself and my own thoughts and feelings about what I am currently feeling right now as I am writing this post right now nothing more nothing less. As always I ONLY speak for myself and never anyone else.

Dear reader this post might be rambling because I am trying to get my feelings about this situation out of my mind and onto this post, Writing always makes me feel better which is the core purpose of this blog.

Dear reader I am trying to get more book reviews and opportunities and possibly some sort of “job” that I can actually physically do(because of my CP, Cerebral Palsy) and I have recently seen how Twitter and this blog(Because of all of your likes, views, follows comments, and support) can possibly be a way to get more book reviews especially since I will be trying to get myself known as a blogger/book reviews with writers and publishers via here Twitter, here on this blog, and hopefully being able to physically get to go to a free book fair event soon.

I know that I am not the best blogger or book reviewer however I am honest and open about showing how I feel about a book, life, and other things that I like.

I personally believe that if I don’t try my hardest to use every single opportunity that I have(as long as I am not hurting anyone or being untrue to myself) if I don’t I will regret it.

I really want to try to use YouTube for more than playing video games and if you have been with me for awhile you might know and have seen my videos to you guys and to be completely honest with you dear reader I don’t personally feel comfortable with being on camera which honestly makes me feel like I don’t fit in because to me personally dear reader it seems like the world is more visual than written.

I feel like I am letting you down for not doing videos stuff but I don’t feel like myself on camera because of my CP(Cerebral Palsy) and the way that I talk and look like on camera I just can’t stop worrying about the possibility of YouTube haters.

I really wish that I could afford to pay for the subscription to be able to upload videos directly to WordPress(No I am not trying to ask you guys for money).

To be completely honest with you dear reader I have been trying to find a way to get a “tip jar” for my blog so that if you like my content and want to support me you can however I ONLY want you to “tip me” IF YOU actual like/enjoy my posts or me as a person. The “tips” would/should be seen as a “tip” and NOT as a donation or anything more than that.

The other thing that I am very nervous about is the possibility of losing myself and do what you or people on Twitter want me to do or be.

If I ever feel like I am becoming a “brand” or losing myself I will remove myself from Twitter or anything else that is changing me.

This blog is a safe place and my safety blanket. I honestly can’t see myself without having this blog and you guys in my life.

This is a honest raw view of myself however it’s still a window, meaning that I can never completely show you every single detail of my life here because some of my life involves family and friends whose stories aren’t mine to tell.

Yes dear reader I will still share my own personal thoughts/feelings about things that involve people who I know however it will only be the parts which effect me mentally, emotionally, or physically. Never as a play-by-play type of thing.

I write for myself and always will no matter if I get one follower or all of you guys leave because I only have one life and one journey to live and I will have to always live with my choices good and bad.

I am SO very unbelievably thankful for having you all on this journey with me dear reader and I can’t wait to see where we go next ♡.