Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me trying to get some more of the feelings/thoughts about my divorce stuff out of my system so that it doesn’t stay bottled up inside me and explode. If you’re curious about the backstory to this post check out the “Ending” tab of my blog everything related to it is there.

My Enemy

It’s funny how you are the one who is helping me the most with my divorce.

It’s funny how it’s you who is giving me my life back after 6 years of waiting.

I know that it’s because you want him for yourself.

For you see we were never supposed to be enemies or even friends for that matter.

I should have been done and divorced from him way before you showed up.

However he doesn’t let go easily…

I find it funny that you say that he tells you how much he loves me and how sorry he is for cheating on me with 7 people if you count all of the different people who he was talking to each separate time he tried to get me back.

I only went back to him twice and it’s been 6 years since I’ve even seen him.

I don’t love him.

I don’t hate him

And

I damn sure don’t want him back.

I told you everything that I was hiding for him not because of you or anger at him.

I did it because I know that I can’t wait to play his game the “right” way anymore.

I had to burn the bridge between him and I.

Sometimes fire is the only protection left.

I am not your enemy.

I am not your friend.

I don’t want to even know you.

Unfortunately for us both a man who was in our lives at one point in time made us both enemies.