Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me getting my personal feelings out so that they don’t stay bottled up inside me and explode & thanking the people who have been with me on this journey ♡.

Dear reader I just found out that a different person who I met recently is having drug issues, (No dear reader this person and I aren’t dating he is not interested in girls and he is married) I met him online with some other people at the same time(thing Google hangout) and I really do enjoy talking to all of them.

However if you have been around for awhile now you will already know that I have issues getting close to people even if it seems like I open up a lot, 99.9 percent of the time it’s all stuff that I don’t care if anyone knows.

I share my secrets/true thoughts on here mainly because I know that I will probably never have to meet any of you guys in person(Not that I wouldn’t love to meet you guys sometime) which means that you guys can’t really judge me (mean comments on this blog are very rare thankfully).

I don’t feel like I have many constants in my life right now:

• My dad.
• This blog.
• Books.

are pretty much the only constants in my life I feel like everything else can get up and leave at any time so to speak. 

You guys keep me coming back to something even when the world feels like it’s falling down around me.

I want to help him but at the same time I don’t want to push him away, you guys saw how the “Starr” situation turned out and I definitely don’t want to repeat that situation. I have sent him a message saying that I will be here for him if he needs me and I left it at that.

I guess I am feeling a little bit weird on a personal level right now and this blog always gives me back my sense of it’s okay and that I am not as weird as I think I am. 

If you’re in the United States dear reader I hope that you are having a great Fourth of July weekend and if you are anywhere else in the world I still want you to have an amazing day. 

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