Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me talking about feelings that I am currently working through in this moment. It’s not directed towards anyone specifically.

Dear reader I am not going to try to explain the backstory to this situation because I don’t want to start drama or seem like I am complaining because I am really not. 

Recently I had the opportunity to get to talk to some awesome people via Google hangout how I got the first invite was a total accident. 

I had a lot of fun and if you have been around on this journey with me for awhile you will already know that I am not trying to be a YouTuber and how I honestly don’t feel comfortable or like my personality transfers well to the camera as it does whenever I write.

Well it turns out that the hangouts are being made into their own YouTube channel and the people who are on will each have their own respective videos/segments on it.

To be completely honest with you dear reader I do honestly feel a little bit bad about the fact that I wasn’t told at all that I wouldn’t be invited to join. 

I know that I am not what they are looking for however it still would’ve been nice to have been told sorry but no especially since everyone else who has been a part of it is going to be on it.

I honestly do truly wish them the very best of luck with everything and I will probably watch some of the stuff when I am not so annoyed with being left out. 

I know that I fit better with words anyway and possibly being a guest blogger for somewhere could be awesome as long as I would be able to keep my own individual integrity and personality as well as whatever site works worth me knowing that you guys this blog will always come first as well as being aware of and supportive of the fact that my CP(Cerebral Palsy) does at times affect how much energy I have.

I know that me trying to force myself into something that doesn’t fit with who I am isn’t going to get me anywhere in the long run. 

I also don’t want to become someone else that I can’t stand just so that I can please a group of people or a boss.

I have learned the hard way many times over how much my personal integrity means to me and how much I NEED to be able to respect the person who I see in the mirror.

Dear reader thank you so very much for staying on this journey and caring about me as a person ♡.