Dear reader the following may seem weird or crazy to you however it is true:

Ever since I was about 5 or 6 years old I knew that somewhere a guy is waiting for me, you see dear reader when I was about 5 or 6 years old I had a surgery on my legs to help me not cross or “scissor” my legs every time someone held me in a standing position.

During that time I had both my legs in casts with a piece of medal connecting them together(that was removed with the casts it wasn’t in my body) when I was in the cast my dad figured out I could stand up on my own with no one having to hold me up.

That was a very big thing I have never been able to do since, my dad even asked the DR. If I could stay in the cast for two weeks longer then I had to because they knew once I was out of the cast I wouldn’t be able to do it again. To this day I still remember that feeling of freedom I had.

One day I was standing up in the casts and holding a “Beauty and The Beast” mirror while brushing my own hair and I remember thinking I am not alone someone out there loves me(I think it started because I was wondering if I could have a “Beast” as well) and will find me someday.

I remember having the same thought during some of the darkest times of my life, I can’t give up someone is waiting for me. As sad as this will sound to some I knew my ex wasn’t “the guy” but I let myself think I had made him up and I did love my ex something just felt “off”.

“The Guy” I am looking for isn’t perfect, its more of a feeling of “Like calling to like” a click I will feel when we meet, like “yes, your the one who has kept calling to me.” I know he may even drive me nuts, I just feel like I know him somehow. Its like know he is calling my name and I can’t stop till I find out what he wants.