Note: This post will seem weird to you dear reader however I just need to get the thoughts out of my head so my mood can hopefully go back to normal. Which is the stated intent and purpose of this blog anyway.

Dear reader have you ever felt in your” gut” or soul that some event is headed your way and you can feel your mind/body start to pre-process the emotions of said event in advance(a sudden unexplained urge to cry, random bout of anger etc)?

I have heard it said that dreams are your body/mind’s way of doing this in a safe environment and I agree, I just think since I try to be attuned to my emotions as much as possible to avoid blocked up emotions I am picking up on this stuff sooner to avoid it hitting me like a ton of bricks when said event finally  occurs.

Being Pagan the Gods have taught me to let my emotions do their thing without taking it too personally/letting them get me too worked up.

I am thankful for the lesson it’s just the sadness is getting to me. I just feel like I really can’t process it all right now because my friend needs me.

I feel like if I tell her she won’t understand or she will do what she always does which is tell me to “Suck it up”(Heaven help you if you ever say that to her though).

I just want a way to de-stress but not much is helping except for my friend that I met through here, I just feel like I bugged him too much though: (.

I am hoping that writing this all out will give me an outlet to feel better.  Truth is dear reader I just really want a cuddle, someone to rub my forehead and feel their body close to mine.