Dear reader I know that I am different and strange(You have seen some of it here already) I still want someone who understands and loves me for it.

I keep dreaming of this guy(2 different dreams so far) I haven’t publicly posted about here because the dreams had sex in them. He seems to understand me without trying.

I really want and need that. I just feel like the “odd one out” right now. I can feel the mask slipping slowly back into place. It feels like no one wants or cares to see the real me and I am really tired of explaining myself and no one really understanding, it feels easier just to give them the me they want to see and understand already.

Will anyone ever want me?